In this very chance I will talk about my infatuation, something that I hold dear, my soft spot, BTS.
It first started back in 2014, I unintentionally found them on TV, it was their Boy in Luv music video from their school trilogy album SKOOL LUV AFFAIR. Seriously it was from my only innocent curiosity, then it led me to my Hwa Yang Yeon Hwa: my Most Beautiful Moment in Life.
If one ask me why I was so into them, maybe my first answer would be because I relate to them a lot.
I had my lowest point in 2015 and BTS became something that can get me back on track. Their albums HYYH Pt. 1 and HYYH Pt. 2 motivate me the most. Their lyrics and wide range of musicality became my inspiration to learn more and to prevent you from falling you have to accelerate more and not to stop.
I can have a taste of failure and frustration and bow my head
We are still young and immature, don’t even worry about it
Moss surely grows on a stone that doesn’t roll
If you can’t return, go straight through your mistakes and forget them all
It’s not easy but engrave it onto your chest
If you feel like you’re going to crash then accelerate more, you idiot
– INTRO: Never Mind, from BTS album Hwa Yang Yeon Hwa pt. 2
My second reason would be their genuine fondness of eachother. How they interact and how their personalities match and complete every single gaps so they can work on every problems they face wisely.
I once read an interview of their producer (Bang Si Hyuk), and he literally said that they like each other to death. There would be often small arguments. However, ever since they first debuted, they were thought to solve the problems within the team even if they fought. This, the members followed 100% (source: interview by OSEN titled Oh! A cup of coffee).
I was also thankful to them because their songs really gave me so much knowledge. I learned a lot about music genres, politics, social, movies, psychology, literatures, and even biology from their lyrics.
But, if one ask me if I am ashamed to be their fan at this age… I must say… Yes, sometimes. Mostly because of a huge misconception of the word fangirl. What is in your mind when you think of fangirl? Must be a very passionate (rudely, they sometimes say hardcore) young female fan, who screams and defends their favorite band (mostly Korean) and cry over them at concert. This concept is basically generalizing, and that’s what disgusts me so much.
But let me explain you about this with what Epik High said on their interview about the label ‘fangirl’.
Epik High: Why are music fans called fangirls just because they are young girls?
“People should not curse at or belittle someone for their music tastes just because they know better,” and they wondered why young females don’t have the rights to enjoy certain types of music (
I add, without being belittled). They said this especially in the case where the term ‘fangirl’ is used to belittle young females. Girls can understand music too, so music fans should not call them fangirls just because they are young girls ( I add, or a female who likes to listen to Korean musics).
Epik High pointed out that the attitudes of some music enthusiasts who criticize others to show their supremacy isn’t right, nor is the clear act of male superiority to label fangirls as such. Tablo said, “The concept of an overzealous (
passionate or they often say hardcore) fan culture is a problem in itself, but music fans shouldn’t dismiss young females as fangirls. We should get rid of the habit of dismissing females, and should not look down upon others just because you think you’re well versed in music. It would be great if everyone opened their hearts and listened to music comfortably and lovingly.” (Source: JoyNews24, 2006) *I personally add the crossed sentences.
Okay, so back to my original intention to write this post is to share my experience last Saturday which is MY FIRST TIME WATCHING BTS CONCERT! BIG YEAY!
I originally didn’t want to meet BTS in real life, cause BTS has been a big part of my secluded and different realm of my reality and daily life. I promised myself to not bring BTS to my real life, but what can be done? They had helped me get through all the hardest part in life. I must see them, at least once.
My opinion about the concert (beside all the shitty management the promotor did) is they performed really really well. Really well, I mean I never imagined they are that good, eventhough I watch their performances on Youtube endlessly… But to experience it in real life I could not find the perfect words to describe. It was hype, it was lit.
Their dances were on point. I was in the pit, and I could saw it clearly how they snapped powerfully and every details in their dances amazed me. Their vocals are also great… I mean with those all the dancing they did, they still can sing and rap that good..
I think it was a complete lucky choice, that I chose to watch from the pit. Because it is not that far from the stage, I can see them clearly one by one without anyone missing. And I could also see their detailed dance moves more clearly.
Last but not least, I also didn’t expect a slight change of my bias list. Basically I like every members in equal (ehm, but Yoongi a slight bit more). But yesterday… Jung Hoseok deceitfully turned it over. That rude big ball of sunshine became my second bias (nothing can top Yoongi for me) with all those sly smirks he threw at the audiences, and some hip thrusts here and there. And he is so handsome in real life I was like ??? His dances are too good, and his solo performance (for me at least) was the best compared to other members.
Sadly, eventhough WINGS is indeed a good album but HYYH series are still my favorite. So I would prefer to watch their HYYH On Stage: Epilogue concert, but what can I do? They only came to 8 countries and Indonesia was not in their list :’D